I need some help and explanation about this problem of mine...
I used to do spiritual work (healing, clairvoyance etc) but gave it up about 18 months ago when I was psychically attacked. I had to move house due to poltergeist activity and had major sleep disturbances for about a year. This was after I got involved with a man who I taught psychic awareness to and we started relationship. I was told it was because he had bad karmic stuff and wasn't attending to it and it was leaking out all over the place and attracting the wrong sort of spirit. I lost all my protection whilst I was with this man. The relationship ended last year. Since then I have been afraid to get involved with anyone.
I recently met someone who I liked a lot. Trouble is he is into pagan magick n stuff and rather dark stuff. I decided that I was over all the past problems and so embarked on a relationship with him. Within 8 hours I had terrible dark spirits in my house and dreams. I had to call it off with him. Within 10 minutes of this it all stopped. I still want to be with him but cannot because of the dark stuff.
Why is this so? I thought it was because it was time to face my own darkness which I am doing (or trying to) but I really cannot see that I have any! I tried my best protections but they were powerless in the face of the strength of his "darkness".
Can someone give me a clue either intellectually or psychically as to why this keeps happening? I would really be very grateful for some guidance. I miserably think now that I am just not destined to have anymore relationships this lifetime. I am 43.
